Hard Privilege
Getting to lo ve a child until their last breath (and beyond) is more beautiful than one can imagine. Yes, it is painful, hard, and something I don’t wish on anyone, but the honor of getting to be someone’s person right up until the end is a huge privilege. Even though I knew him l onger, I only got to be Keven’s person for about 10 mo nths. I got to be Jeffter’s person for a little over three and a half years. Many times I have questi on ed “If de ath was the end, then why did we have t o fight so hard so many times?” In the last six months of Keven’s life he spent a couple weeks in the hospital and his health was up and down once he returned home. We were sure he was going to die once, but he got better before his last sickness. In Jeffter’s last three years of life he was hospitalized three times, had four or five stays in our nurse’s room here (basically the equivalent of being hospitalized), had two surgeries, and had multiple sicknesses and scares we were able to deal with